Praying through it.

This past weekend Jorge and I spent time in Charlotte with two free nights at the Westin. We had a great time and just loved getting away. With a baby on the way we will cherish the moments we get to go off by ourselves. We still just can't believe we are expecting our first baby! Wow what a long road this has been. So today we are praying through our next decision.

Before we got pregnant we received a call about two children we have been matched with for adoption. Both are African American, boy 5 and girl 2.5. So now what do we do. We've always said we wanted to adopt, baby or no baby. We are scheduled to meet with them on Tuesday 11/24/09 at 12:00. We are still planning to meet with DSS and find out all of the info about these two, but part of me is being insanely selfish right now. I want to take this time and cherish my first pregnancy and first newborn child. Since I've never been pregnant before, I look forward to all the first's. And I may be having more than one. So again...what do I do? I know Jorge and I would love a house full of children, but I want to give the very best I can to the adoptive children. They are going to need a ton of our time and energy. During a pregnancy I just can't imagine doing all of that. Not with my first. Is that selfish? I have never wanted adoption to be the back door to fertility issues. I also NEVER saw myself getting pregnant. When we went for IUI we were hopeful but I can say I didn't think it would work so quickly. Imagine my amazement when the IUI worked at the first try. Now we are expecting a bundle of joy in July 2010.

Jorge and I can only pray about it tonight and over the week. I'm sure they won't want us to immediately give an answer about what we'll be doing on the adoption same day. Please pray for our family for guidance.

I can say that Chris is a little out of sorts with all of this. Lots of changes happening in our family right now. Jose is leaving for the Army 12/29/09. This is a big deal as he is someone who Chris looks up to. Now we're adding a baby to the mix and he has said on more than one occassion how he likes being the baby. I mean seriously...he's 16 and will always be Jorge & Kathi's baby. That fact will never change. He's also very concerned about the baby crying and so on. I'm sure he'll adjust. So this makes me wonder about adopting and how he'll feel about that as well. Lots more things to consider.

Please keep us in your prayers!